I emailed Dr. J, my traditional Chinese medicine doc, and told her I needed a break from acupuncture because the cycle got cancelled. She responded, “Why did it get cancelled? For what reason?” I wrote back explaining why. No response from her after that. No nothing. WTF? I feel like ever since my cycle cancellation… Continue reading Supplements, Acupuncture, and Feeling Jaded
Today is cycle day 17 and I am 99% sure I am ovulating. You know what that means? I’m ovulating nearly on time again! I used to ovulate on CD 16 like clockwork until this past January. In January, I ovulated a week late and had a 35 day cycle and I attributed it to… Continue reading Acupuncture, Chinese Herbs, and Tiffany’s
I had a four day July 4th weekend because I took off Monday, and I strayed off the diet wagon. I’ve put on all of 4 pounds which is enough to send me into a mental tailspin. My metabolism is so shot that 1 cheat meal really sets me back a week. I also have… Continue reading Random Update After July 4
What makes an otherwise sane woman pee on a stick (or dip a stick in pee) once, twice, three times a day, starting on 5 dpo? What makes that woman stare at that stark white test and take pictures of it and tweak the contrast options until a line, that may or may not actually… Continue reading Hello Darkness My Old Friend (CD 3)
Today is CD 3 so I went in for my scan and blood work for this next IUI cycle. We have four antral follicles!!! "They are small, we can't tell if they will grow yet but hopefully they will with the meds." Okay, I'll take it! They also found a 10x13 cyst on one ovary… Continue reading We Have Antral Follicles!
When I got to my acupuncture appointment today, Dr. J told me I ovulated on CD 17. She said my temps don't look the way they should, which is what was throwing me, because I have low progesterone. I hope she's right about me ovulating this month. She told me to be happy and not… Continue reading Hope for Egg Quality
I just got back from my appointment with the RD (registered dietician.) Dr. M told me to see the RD five weeks ago, back when she wanted me to lose weight prior to any infertility treatment. Then she saw my AMH drop, my antral follicle count of a whole TWO, and decided we need to… Continue reading
I am terrified. I am terrified that I am in perimenopause. I am terrified that I will never have a baby with my own eggs. I am terrified that if use a donor egg, I will always feel like I missed out. This terror is cold and hard, like an enormous metal sphere, sinking deep… Continue reading What Is At the End Of My Infertility Journey?