Yesterday was CD10 and stims day 5. I went in for my follicle check. I’d been having fertile mucus so I had high hopes. My actual doctor ended up doing the scan, which was great! Usually a medical fellow does the scan (though my baseline was done by the head of the clinic) so I… Continue reading Stims Day 5: Follicle Check!
Update: On Wednesday I did get a message from a nurse that my E2 is 67 and FSH is 3 (from Estrogen priming? Wtf?) and we are going ahead with the cycle. I needed to have a pity party on Wednesday, though. I am hoping my stupid cyst is hiding some follicles. I also remembered… Continue reading IVF#1 Is A Go
Even though we’re not at stage where we’re looking for donor eggs yet, I have been looking through listings with private agencies. I’m a planner for sure, but really, this is my way of assuring myself that I have options. Perhaps when you get to the point of using donor eggs, selecting the donor becomes… Continue reading My Donor Eggs … Myself?
When I got to my acupuncture appointment today, Dr. J told me I ovulated on CD 17. She said my temps don't look the way they should, which is what was throwing me, because I have low progesterone. I hope she's right about me ovulating this month. She told me to be happy and not… Continue reading Hope for Egg Quality
On Friday (3/31) I went in for my CD9 scan and labs, and was told that my follicles didn't grow and my lining didn't thicken. I had an appointment that afternoon with my fertility specialist, Dr. M, to find out the results of my Fragile X test, but since I already got the good results… Continue reading IUI #1: Cancelled.
I am terrified. I am terrified that I am in perimenopause. I am terrified that I will never have a baby with my own eggs. I am terrified that if use a donor egg, I will always feel like I missed out. This terror is cold and hard, like an enormous metal sphere, sinking deep… Continue reading What Is At the End Of My Infertility Journey?
Yesterday was our second appointment with my fertility doctor, Dr. M. I got my Fertilome test results back. I have two genetic variants that are associated with a moderate risk for disorders associated with infertility - one for premature ovarian failure, and one for endometriosis. I don't have the latter (as far as we know)… Continue reading Too Fat for IVF!
This infertility journey is the most difficult and most painful thing I have ever gone through. When I was younger I handled poverty, abuse, abandonment, and failure, and I always saw a light at the end of the tunnel. Even when there was no light, I thought there’d eventually be one, and maybe that has […]