That moment when you lose 42 pounds and no one notices except for the three people you explicitly told you were trying to lose weight. Yup, I’m five pounds below my clinic’s requirement BMI for IVF! And with 13 days to go until my weight check, I hope to lose more to compensate for the… Continue reading Counting My Blessings and Pounds
The good news: I hit my IVF weight. Yay! Now let’s make this stick and continue the downward trend. The bad news: Yesterday was CD 18 and I started spotting. I know it’s my period starting. This is bad because it’s way early, like at least 10 days early. I don’t even know if I… Continue reading Erratic Cycles (My Body Is Not A Wonderland)
I take over 30 pills a day, I drink disgusting fertility smoothies (I brag that I have acquired a taste for wheat grass, who am I kidding?), I get weekly acupuncture. For both IUI cycles I did all my own shots, including Menopur to the butt. And I know it can get way worse than… Continue reading Getting to My IVF Weight
I’ve written before about my doubts about my fertility clinic. I can’t change clinics until January 2018 when I change my health insurance. See, it’s complicated. I work at a university that offers its own free health insurance. The only caveat is that you have to use their health center that is only for students,… Continue reading How Do You Choose An IVF Clinic?
I saw Dr. J for acupuncture last night. I told her my IUI was cancelled because of the follicles not growing and estrogen not increasing. Last cycle when my first IUI was cancelled, she said that I needed to be taking her herbs and seeing her for acupuncture for three months before I'd be ready… Continue reading Too Fat For IUI, Too!
Cycle day 6 and my lining grew a whole half a millimeter to 4.7mm, and we're down to three follicles, all three still less than 10mm. This ultrasound was done by the doctor I like the least, by the way, just to add insult to injury. His bedside manner just makes everything so much more… Continue reading All Hope: Exit Stage Left.
The five stages of grief are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. For me, denial and bargaining have gone hand in hand. I will never forget the morning I got my AMH result I just fell apart completely, sobbing in bed. We spent the weekend watching bad movies to take our minds off of it.… Continue reading Infertility’s Stages of Grief