Yesterday we had our first ultrasound at 5 weeks 6 days.
I was on edge all morning until my appointment. My husband took the day off of work (very rare!) and picked me up from work to go to Dr. M’s office. My heart was pounding, stomach in knots. In the waiting room he tried to talk about his stock portfolio and I snapped at him, “I really don’t want to talk about stocks right now, okay?”
Once we got to the exam room I started crying from anxiety. “I am so scared, I don’t want to do this,” I said. Last time I got this far I couldn’t wait for each ultrasound, to find out what was going on. This time I felt dread and wanted to postpone the horrible.
Dr. M came in and said, “We’re hoping to see a sac and yolk sac today, not much more.” And then we saw a sac, yolk sac, fetal pole, and heart beat. Baby measured 5 weeks 6 days exactly.
I cried so many happy tears.
We couldn’t measure the heart beat because it was too little to pick up but it looked very strong. Everything was visible as soon as she got the wand in there. In the past, ultrasound techs have had to root around my vagina for quite a while, causing much discomfort, while grumbling about fibroids.
We celebrated with ice cream even though this is just one of many milestones. But it’s a huge milestone. We have a heartbeat before 6 weeks! I go back on Tuesday and I’ll be 6 weeks 5 days and we’ll measure the heart rate then. According to a study I read, it needs to be over 120 beats per minute.
We just need to keep on track and then pass our Harmony test after 11 weeks and then get to the second trimester, and I know nothing is for sure, but that is when I will be able to at least tell family and maybe start a new blog.