Estradiol is down to 27 from 37. Maybe this is because I lost a follicle. I have no idea. Menopur dose upped to 300iu. It was so hard to come to work today after my appointment. Before I left my doctor's office, I had to update my insurance. My doctor has a separate waiting room… Continue reading Bonus Update: An Extra Dose of Fail
Cycle day 6 and my lining grew a whole half a millimeter to 4.7mm, and we're down to three follicles, all three still less than 10mm. This ultrasound was done by the doctor I like the least, by the way, just to add insult to injury. His bedside manner just makes everything so much more… Continue reading All Hope: Exit Stage Left.
Today is CD 3 so I went in for my scan and blood work for this next IUI cycle. We have four antral follicles!!! "They are small, we can't tell if they will grow yet but hopefully they will with the meds." Okay, I'll take it! They also found a 10x13 cyst on one ovary… Continue reading We Have Antral Follicles!
Why am I embarrassed that I can’t have a baby? You always hear women who have infertility saying they feel ashamed, like they are less of a woman, or that their bodies betrayed them. I don’t have any of those feelings but I feel straight up embarrassed of my broken ovaries. Like when someone sideswiped… Continue reading The Embarrassment of Infertility
Even though we’re not at stage where we’re looking for donor eggs yet, I have been looking through listings with private agencies. I’m a planner for sure, but really, this is my way of assuring myself that I have options. Perhaps when you get to the point of using donor eggs, selecting the donor becomes… Continue reading My Donor Eggs … Myself?
When I got to my acupuncture appointment today, Dr. J told me I ovulated on CD 17. She said my temps don't look the way they should, which is what was throwing me, because I have low progesterone. I hope she's right about me ovulating this month. She told me to be happy and not… Continue reading Hope for Egg Quality
We are in that waiting time between actions. After my cancelled IUI we decided not to try this month because we're both jumpy about the possibility of poor quality eggs and another miscarriage, should I get pregnant. Of course, if we'd gone through with the IUI it would have been the same risk, but somehow… Continue reading In Sad Limbo
The five stages of grief are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. For me, denial and bargaining have gone hand in hand. I will never forget the morning I got my AMH result I just fell apart completely, sobbing in bed. We spent the weekend watching bad movies to take our minds off of it.… Continue reading Infertility’s Stages of Grief
We're not even trying to get pregnant naturally this cycle after the cancelled IUI. I was thinking, why bother risking it when my eggs probably bad anyway? But I would have tried if my husband wanted to. I asked him and he feels the same way I do. How sad is that? I keep reading… Continue reading
On Friday (3/31) I went in for my CD9 scan and labs, and was told that my follicles didn't grow and my lining didn't thicken. I had an appointment that afternoon with my fertility specialist, Dr. M, to find out the results of my Fragile X test, but since I already got the good results… Continue reading IUI #1: Cancelled.